the green is back on my tongue and i'm not staring into teacups anymore but instead i am i am living inside of them do you think i should find a new home? but all i see is green on green and all i see is soft focus on our feet and all of it if i could find a tree for us to hide in you know we could stay here the rest of our lives if i could find a tree for us to hide in you know we could stay here i hope you can understand how light can play glinting off steaming water i hope you don't just see it all as waveforms and fluidity formulas like they all seem to i hope you can see the green on my tongue finding yours… yet all i see is green on green and all i see is soft focus on our feet and all of it if i could find a tree for us to hide in you know we could stay here the rest of our lives if i could find where the nerve connects to the eye- we could see this from the canopy but i'm still waiting for spring on cobblestones you're still standing on a manicured lawn watching the light pass through the trees i wish i could find out why we never seemed to fit maybe it was all the time we wasted inside that tent summer's come and gone, now leave your floral dreams behind i will think twice before i plant my orchid this time.

if you keep chasing the tide— it'll only lead you to the same conclusion the cycles of the lives that leave you with your throat dry and vision blurring and eyes spinning while you wonder why you're underwater searching for it can i help you rehydrate? cos i can see the saltwater weighing you down and you're all covered in sodium and though you're not mine still today we fell in to a place where we thought we couldn't go and i swore they wouldn't let us back to that headspace we dwell inside of our drowned minds and i knew what i would find washed up on the shore again where neuroscience took my eyes overwrought + over thought the remnants of what was left you left me far too down the remnants what i have left you left me too far down i stay blind for now.

you stole mine- and i knew what to find we stood on the edge of the tidal wave the light came in through the glass-stained windows we tried to carve our names while we stayed afloat we tried and i saw the light leave your eyes the years we'd been afloat the time machine we made beautiful sacrifices and gorgeous pulls in the hands of my home i knew would stay don't you miss me ever again. goodbye for now, my pilot my forager of dark seas it was nice knowing you if only in our dreams

tortured artist only knows how to tease me and i am lost under ripples of yours when we stare it's not the ocean I'm used to just another wave of the hand where we stand i thought i had fallen and found a new cliff to jump from all the risks we never took and i i thought i had been here what is longing anymore? what what do you mean? oceanic glances soften the years of tidal waves sinking into the water is no longer a threat but a tempting thought. tell me what i want you to be

what i have found so far is only what you've made of it when— so lost. what i have made so far is all that you've wanted from me and i'd only had one part maybe we have the wrong time and i'll give you all that i need to be harmed will you make me be the only person to find? we're only with you moored well i will— as long as you keep your way around and i am falling deeper than i hoped i would it's all that i need to see make me yours and i fall in dawn

strove to find what you knew was left inside your own your own end. took what eyes to mean what i found in the ground inside your your ending. what we've left is not what i've had in my my own fate i am a lone haunt want to be what i need and i knew i knew. oh when you fell to— when you fell too when you've fallen quickly when you fall into.

scrambling your way through rocks in the road morally fraught by waves maybe we know nothing to keep you here for longer than you must be sick to see me that way you must be sick to see me that way when i found you under split wood i thought i could make a pact with my tree roots but we left and we fell out i thought it would be divine don't you go counting rings when i have nothing inside don't you go counting rings when i have nothing to incise scrambling your way through cracks in the road wandering through moral loopholes scrambling your way through rocks on our road scrambling your way through moral loopholes we had so much extra cotton we picked so much for your rotten souls for your rotten souls and i i've fallen i've traveled to plains of ohio and i knew nothing could be salvaged i have savagery in my blood i'm sorry if i take it out on your shoulder blades with my emotional motion-sensors i have become senseless under your gaze tear me down make me crown tear it down give me a crown in mercury i've found the most truth in my mind we are meant to destroy your hope again constant cycles cyclical tears of acid rain maybe this day i'll make you change maybe we can become the rebellion? but i can't foresee it— and i can't forbid you from being your ordinary, evolutionary self. but desire clouds your ability to save the world don't you agree? the clicking of your tongue tears away at mine i've scratches on my tastebuds now you've left me with infections of skin in my mouth you shoved it and i'm taking back the forest again the natives are around they're watching from the eyes you left in the trees from carving away at land mines i can't be your excuse i'm umbilicized behind my own claims sordid and full is my only wish for you sorted in fall and scattered in winter we gave up what we knew could be yours sorted in fall and scattered in winter we gave out the rules to a new game keeper.

told me it might hurt i said i don't mind if we make believe we're real then maybe we'll find some semblance of a compromise underneath these cotton clothes you were all mine before i ran away… i had this dream when i was fourteen- it happened in this very room maybe i knew more then than i do now don't think i'll sleep tonight we can make up for lost time- with the pull and tear of the wall i'll find you again.

i, a lungfull that you can't let go and i can't think of—no. i— i can't fathom why you, a lung full and i can't let go and you've all my lifeboats— and you're not my only hope.

i'm sorry for those high end types and your attempt to do what was right when you fell down the wall of spikes did you think i'd let you bask again this time? with seraph-dashes-splitting tearing all to recharge fingers frozen—gripping onto ice sullen insight savor your own light again it makes so little sense: the way we hold our poison in our hands sulfur in our hands sulfur in my eyes sulfur and i am opening sulfur and i am opening guide in your own lights i'm sorry for the way we made you twist (lay between my bones-again) our bones cracked inside an abscess of skin oh you must find me alone when you gave in and i know who i need to find safe inside what i want is what you have not tried to keep in from me and i am falling offer me this time what i want is what you have not tried to keep in from me and i am sure again go my way and (not for me— stay.) sullen in my own quiet tide

see it through my eyes— i saw it like a dream that i had and i knew you were gone leaves left for me is it just wrong to assume that i lost you inside my own mind? keep it just going when i knew what you'd say: "it's nothing to find" keep it from me as long as you know what i cannot find "leave me behind" leave me behind.